Sunday, August 30, 2015

Invisible colleagues

No.. unlike my dear wife, I haven't manage to get a paper in NEJM... yet.

There is an excellent humanity piece in the "Perspective" section in this edition... given it's free online, I'll reference it, then copy and paste it here..

Invisible Colleagues

Benjamin J. Oldfield, M.D.
N Engl J Med 2015; 373:792-793August 27, 2015DOI: 10.1056/NEJMp1506873

At least twice monthly, I see Ms. F. in the hospital where I'm training. Tall, with olive skin, freckles, and short curly hair, she walks with perfect posture in immaculate sneakers. She's in her late 20s and has moderate persistent asthma. Her two children, who occasionally visit her at work after school, both have asthma and eczema. Born and raised in East Baltimore, Ms. F. wears Ravens earrings on pregame Fridays and scorns the paucity of purple in my wardrobe.
The rest of her medical history is unknown to me, since Ms. F. is not a patient of mine. I have never seen her medical chart. Rather, we share a place of work: she as a janitor, and I, a resident. I last saw her out of the corner of my eye while discussing a case in the medical ICU, as she carted linens to and from the hospital laundry facility.
We met during my intern year when I was lost in the bowels of the hospital with an elderly patient, looking for the MRI suite. As I simultaneously steered the patient's gurney and called my senior resident for directions, I nearly ran over Ms. F. She dodged, smiled knowingly at my distress, and escorted us to the scanner. She remembers that event, and her toothy grin has brightened each interaction since.
Ms. F. has had a few more years of hospital experience than I have, and her knowledge spans gaps that haven't been covered in my medical training. Her stories add another perspective to the one told by these gilded hallways lined with portraits of Nobel laureates and policymakers. From her, I hear about neighbors displaced by commercial expansion in East Baltimore, or the evolution of wage discussions between her union and the hospital administration.
Shortly after I met Ms. F., she spent 2 months in a nearby homeless shelter because of financial insecurity brought on by her father's death. She continued to work during that time, earning about $12 per hour, similar to the income of many janitors at Maryland teaching hospitals.1 Today, she and her family have their own place, and she connects the dots between public assistance programs to satisfy their basic needs. Food-assistance programs help sate her son's craving for green grapes. And Medicaid pays for his bronchodilators — the hospital's family health plan is unaffordable on her wages.
Ms. F.'s story runs contrary to the purported mission of my academic medical center — and probably most others. We claim on banners, websites, and pamphlets that, in addition to pursuing excellence in research and medical education, we seek to improve the health of our communities. But rarely, it seems to me, are those communities defined — or consulted. The people who live near and work in these institutions appear to have no place in these missions: they are not celebrated as our colleagues, nor can they afford to be our patients.
During a recent shift in our emergency department, I was reminded of how Ms. F. suffers from this exclusion. Her son presented with difficulty breathing after having run out of his asthma medications. When I entered the room, Ms. F. was sitting with her wheezing son in her lap while he received his third back-to-back nebulizer treatment. She tapped his well of albuterol with her purple-painted fingernails, lest he miss out on the last drops of medication — as if those drops might make the difference between a disposition to home and a disposition to the inpatient pediatric floor.
She smiled when she saw me and asked for an update on how her son was doing. At the provider workstation, I found the admitting team already receiving sign-out on his case. “Our third asthma admission in 2 hours,” lamented my coresident. Ms. F. met me at the door to her son's room as I walked back. When I told her he was to be admitted, she said, tearing up, that she didn't think she could continue to make ends meet, what with the missed days of work. As we spoke, we looked in at her son, tachypneic but giggling at the tablet computer our staff had given him to use.
As a resident in internal medicine and pediatrics, I'm being trained to foster healthy families — exactly what our health care institutions purport to promote. Yet here was a friend, colleague, and patient who was left out of that story. I recalled my harried search for the MRI scanner that night in the hospital basement when Ms. F. and I first met; our roles were now reversed. Now she was the one lost and in trouble in the bowels of a larger machine. I wished I could show her the way to where she wanted to go, as she had done for me.
Ms. F.'s story echoes through neighborhoods surrounding many U.S. academic medical centers. And it helped me realize that, as physicians who serve our local communities, we should advocate for policies that promote health, productivity, and dignity in the people who work alongside us. Ms. F. and her family deserve a place in our missions.
The initial and identifying characteristics of the employee have been changed to protect her privacy.

100th Day


Time flies... a while ago we celebrated Elisha's 100th Day.. It's a Korean tradition.. little did I know it used to be a Chinese one too..! In a couple of days... she'll turn 4 months!

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

11 weeks


I can't help but to notice that while my darling wife's blog is full of Elisha's birth story and how she's surviving the postpartum period, my blog is rather anaemic on this aspect. 

Well.

For all that you can refer to her blog. For how a dad who works part-time cope with 2 under 2 at home, read on.

It's tough.

There you go, all summarised in one word. 

I don't know. As I said to my best friend, parenting a baby and a toddler is really a tough gig. Sure, I love them to bits, I want to spend my every single living moment with them. 

And that is, exhausting.

I know I better start to enjoy the journey, as it's a journey that will go on, and on, and on. 

Not having family around would be really hard, yet having them around pose some quite unique challenges as well.

Life is never perfect. Well, nothing is. 

Having said all that, I'm forever grateful for what I have. Just look at how cute Jonathan and Elisha are in the photo!

Friday, July 03, 2015

2 under 2


Baby Elisha turned 2 months this week. We had a mini photoshoot at home last week and it turned out to be quite a nice experience with some nice photos. I have to admit we took heaps more photos of Baby Jonathan in the first few months after he was born.. The reality is I was less busy with work then, and also there was only ONE baby to look after. Now... with J approaching 21 months.. he's a really busy boy. Add to the fact that his molars are coming out....

I'm very hopeful that things will improve.. J just loves E and hopefully E will reciprocate that when she's a bit older. They'll play together, entertain each other, keep an eye out for one another.. 

One of the more important realisation I have after being a parent is the fact that   ... your time is not really YOUR time anymore. 

I do regret how I didn't maximise the use of MY time before they were born....!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

7 weeks old


Elisha turned 1 month a bit more than 2 weeks ago. She is such a cute little girl, gentle, calm, and pretty! With her, I feel like time is passing by too quickly. Inevitably, with Jonathan still under 2 (20 months) years old, I end up spending most of the time with him while my wife looks after her day-to-day needs (feeding!).

Older parents around us keep on saying all the hard work of parenting is worth it. I don't know. This is a tough gig, and I guess all I can wish for is that it all pays off, somehow, sometime in the future. Otherwise the whole thing is pretty hopeless really. I love them to bits, no question about that. But loving them doesn't mean I can't admit it's difficult to function day to day, to juggle between chores, work, play, looking after them... etc. (My wife will not like this, she doesn't even feature on the top three on this list...... my bad).

Friday, May 15, 2015


Elisha was born on the 5th of May, 2015. A big little girl - 4.3kg. Dani had a lightning fast labour - so fast that there was no time for even an IV and not to say an epidural. No nothing but holding on to my arms and hands. She did it the good old fashioned way!

Elisha is a little treasure from the heaven above - arrived just 18 months after little Jonathan was born. I pray that she'll grow up to become a smart, happy and healthy person. With 2 under 2 in the house, it is interesting times ahead!!

Friday, March 20, 2015

Finally, after months of having my mother helping out with Jonathan, we're on our own. Things of course were easier when she was around, an extra pair of hands always help. Now it's me, 17 month old Jonathan, and Dani who is 33 weeks pregnant. 

Things are settling in, nicely. J is getting used to go to Day Care... I've got a bit of work lined up, everything seems to be in order... but not for long!!

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Mexx, Target and google glass



Less than 3 months after we left Calgary, two of our favourite stores announced they will be closing in 2015. Target opened in Canada before we went to Calgary in mid 2013. We bought some of Jonathan's best clothes from Mexx.

It's certainly a world where the fittest survives. Let's see what 2015 brings. In a few days, we'll be starting a new chapter in our journey again, how long we'll be staying in Melbourne this time round?

Thursday, January 01, 2015

Grandparents



Our grandfathers love baby Jonathan to bits! 

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas 2014


Christmas this year is quite different from last year's. Jonathan was a bit more than 2 months then and he is now a confident 14 month toddler with a mind of his own. Snow vs grass, winter vs summer, next-to-no-family vs all the siblings on both sides of the family coming home in the next few days.

It is also probably the last Xmas we get to have some "quiet time" as a couple... our yet-to-be-born baby (girl!) will be just a bit more than 6 months old next xmas, while he'll be... a bit more than 2. Our family has expanded from 2 members to 4 members in a... fairly short time.

I look forward to 2015, a challenging, exciting year.